Confused and bedazzled
I wonder why I still seek that perfect one
It’s about not settling for anything but the best
I’m picky you know
I just cant deal with anyone’s bullshit  anymore
You know, annoying habits ,
Political ritiousness
Couch potato insensitivity
Watching the game
And no creativity
I need some one who can keep up
That does the things that I do
That Likes to go to parties
And supplies me with the kudos I want
I tries that “SETTLING”  thing and it didn’t work
I just wasn’t getting what I wanted out of the relationship
It wasn’t rewarding
I didn’t feel understood
It’s like we where two DIFFFERENT” people
But then I had a relationship with the perfect one
So I thought
Everyone said we where so much alike
I thought so much it was “SCARY”
We did everything together
Had the same friends
Loved the same restaurants
Like d the same bands
I felt smothered after a while
I couldn’t tell where I ended and they began
I couldn’t run away because we shared the same world
So I banished them from my world
What was I thinking ;
Going out with someone just like me
Hmm !  Opposites attract
Maybe if I look for someone who is into their own thing
Who cares what it is
They’ll have theirs
And I’ll have mine
And we’ll intersect in the “US”  department
But then they’ll be having fun without me
 Or resenting the fun I have without them
OHHH !  and I hate it when someone want’s to do what I’m doing
Just to be around me
Mucking up my gig
Cause they’re just being a tourist in love.
But I want someone to love me
AAAAAAAAAHHGGGGGGGG!
How am I going to get what I want..

I know!  I just have to do it myself!
I can do this . No one can claim my fortune but me
No interference,
No risk other then what I wish to risk
My own person
That done !   I’ll have all I ever wanted
Still yearning for that perfect one
I thought it was me and I’m my own partner
I fit my check list
But I still yearn for the perfect one
Checking back in with the check list
I want just the fun parts
I’ll supply the rest  for myself
Dinner
Exercise partner
Late night phone calls
Lunch
Vacations
Road trips
Social gatherings
Pillow talk
Sex sex sex
Yeah someone to kick it with in all the things I hate to do alone.
That way I don’t have to see how they handle their laundry.
And they won’t have to see mine!
But what about it!
Why is it such a big deal!